My last relationship and emotional breakdown happened in Asia, in the middle of high-rise buildings in a fancy apartment.
On the surface, life (and career) was incredible, but inside I was a hot mess.
I was upset and confused all the time. It was hard for me to wake up in the morning, caffeine to get through the day and alcohol to unwind at night. My heart was breaking every day and my world was spinning while my life was spiraling out of control.
One night, it happened again.
The man that I loved deeply disappeared again, ghosted like he always did…. Not responding to my messages… like I was nothing to him.
I spent the night crying, doubting myself and my worthiness.
I could not figure it out for the life of me: If I was successful in my career, looked decent and had so much love to give … why did love hurt so much? And why couldn’t I feel happy, safe, loved, cherished and appreciated in my relationships?
I’ve suffered from heartbreak and low esteem in my life and every time I learned new tools and techniques to make myself better.
It took me 10 years to figure it out, but what I learned worked for me and made me determined to help others suffering in situationships or toxic love dynamics with emotionally unavailable men.